Evenings Dead

Portraits of Skies

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 05:56:52 GMT

ill write you up with black,
and color you in red
a picture worth a 10,000 words

the days i dont miss are missed
and nights spent alone
with thoughts spilling over my head

drown? hope? dead? waiting...

ill live, because leafless trees make it so easy to believe

and pictures of intense sunsets
ive never seen
and pictures of us to fall back on

ill paint the walls with portraits of skies
a brush like a gun..
and a finger preying for a beautiful goodbye

fallen apart like these sentences
written darkness lost within me
you are my flashlight and my dreams

both so warm

just like that picture of the sunset ...
these walls will be without red pictures
until the time comes for worse days

i dont fuckin know.... there is no title.

Sat, 12 Feb 2005 04:32:10 GMT

oh yeah,
you bet we're walkin down this path again
and you know where we're going
the grass is broken from my constant footsteps
and the newspaper is stacked at the door

but oh wait! wait! i really am..

im sorry to bother my unwalked path
but im goin where you dont know
cuz constant patterns kill me
so im cutting my feet on grass made of glass
and im bleeding all over my comfort

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 20:28:31 GMT

as you leave i watched my morning fade..
my nights less light and myself less bright.
clouds covering my days
and stars fading as each night dies..

I now realize i hate to love being alone.
I dont have anything, except you.
and i dont even have you.

Come back,
My world doesnt move without you

Come back,
My lungs need your air

Come Back,
My lips need your skin

Come Back,
My eyes need your reflection

Come Back,
My heart needs your beat

Come Back,
Please.

Attending the same party.

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 06:44:51 GMT

As we attend the same party
breathing the same air
..and hoping for the same thing
brought together only by friends ive never thanked.

i sat there waiting to see the same light as you...
and hoping for fate to play through
if tonights the night i never see you again
then tonights the night i never see again..

knowing we made a mistake,
this love will not break

Through the room and into our hearts
tomorrow we'll have a 3rd start.

ill give it a name.

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 00:15:54 GMT

Time moves on
I stand still
Days move like heart beats
nights linger through to early morning
sun rises seen 500 times
kill me ....
i seen this day before
i see tomorrow as if it was yesterday
give me a new day of the week
so something can happen

Vampires Love & And A Victims Laughter

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 18:12:38 GMT

A vampires love, so sweet and gentle
biting your neck like its my first blood
my first sweet and so scared to break skin
..with precious monents alone
you laugh like your having the time of you life..
and you smile like we're flying

thinking about it almost makes me cry.
but vampires dont cry ...

i cant wait to taste your skin
...to smell your skin
feel your skin on mine

..and make you my victim again.

So Perfect To Ruin.

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 21:54:13 GMT

As i sleep..
with my most vulnerable moments
and acception to anything
I dream like l was never awake
like ive known nothing...

Nothing horrid or brutal
Only in dreams,
Can you see something this beautiful..
I lie to myself...knowing that i'm
fully awake and in awww
blinding beautiful inside and out.

But Knowing myself all too well,
And knowing I dont deserve this..
Does anyone?
I feel bad.
Meanings of everything and nothing
are too close to explain...
I have you,

and it's so perfect to ruin.

Just another autumn...

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 21:35:14 GMT

As i stand in the moment
Thinking of us...
Looking up at the night sky.
counting the stars as if
they were seconds on the clock.

Rust like leaves on the trees...
On a cold autumn day
Hoping for the sun to break through the branches
and guide us through this place
Hoping for the sun to brighten our day....
waiting.....

Tangerines never smelled so good.

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 22:30:13 GMT

This is a note i'm writing to you,
in the darkest room.
one wick from the orange candle burns
and smells of Tangerines ...sits beside the bed
I sit at your feet as you lose yourself in your dreams,
wrapped in your blanket. i always want to tickle your toes
hoping you wake up and tell me to stop.
but instead .... i leave you alone, and crawl in bed.
facing in the opposite direction.

Ill hope for me tomorrow.
because i beat myself again today...
i need something.
something more then this
ill hope for me tomorrow

Lying in bed making my plans for the day ahead
knowing im not going to do it.
if i turn around i know theres change...
i see brave and ... wanting something new
you need what you want.. i know this
because change of scenery adds to smiles.
but i hope you miss me.
because ill miss you.

i hope that 5 hours doesnt feel like 10.
take this candle, so you dont feel so far.
ill hope for us tomorrow.
miss me,
cuz i will miss you.

I WILL MISS YOU...
I WILL MISS YOU...

So this is how we came to this cliff...

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 05:24:00 GMT

So this is how we came to this cliff...

With your awkward footsteps around my heart
And with your delicate way of killing me.

I know how to live through it..
just by following the scar pattern

As seen in movies,
And read in soft cover books.
Your looks of hurt,
And taste of poison
floods me like wild storms

I jump from this cliff..
I jump from this hurt
I jump from you
It ends so easily.

But as I jump I awaken under my sheets
With my arms wraped around you.

And I realize I was dreaming about the wrong girl...
I would never be made into movies, nor books.
like boring cliches of "its just too good to be true"
I believe it.

You make my day.

she... :)

Mon, 31 May 2004 00:49:13 GMT

She says, "she's so pretty"
and of course i laugh because I knew she'd say that.
So I said, "you say that about everyone"
Then she said to me, "if their nice".

...I guess it takes a beautiful person
to find pretty in everyone.

Even me.

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Mon, 31 May 2004 00:45:07 GMT

Closed eyes catch blinking lights
as if shadows were walking by
I open my eyes and imagine,
what it was that had walked by.
But it's too dark.
Turn on the tv and write this moment
Maybe I should just shut these small meaningless lights off.
Then I couldn't question other frightening existences
I can't sleep.

Sidewalk patterns

Mon, 24 May 2004 17:37:57 GMT

I walk through the day with my head down
Seeing everything except the way.

Sidewalk cracks read patterns cemented in memory.
Faces and intentions, all the same
i am a portrait..
just like everyone else.

Time walks by my side, but i cant keep up.
Night follows and i lose
only to start this race again...mid afternoon.

????

Mon, 24 May 2004 17:33:27 GMT

To the things i hate:
...Like these pet peeves
Today's funny people
You taking pictures of flowers
My good mood ruined by my dark room
And my inability to by.

And to the things i love:
Me being funny today
Taking pictures
My bad mood ruined by
a sunny day and good moods
My ability to be nothing

Standing question marks?????
....did i get that right??

Tomorrow's Dream.

Sun, 16 May 2004 20:12:42 GMT

Heated eyes and heavy lids
sleep and dreams of the life we always wanted
but they far exceed accomplishments and determination.
wake up walking straight into yesterday
with that same thought of tomorrow.
we hope that our dreams of tomorrow,
will come with nothing at all.
..but we will dream, because thats all that keeps us going.

Like most of us, i'm rich in dream
but there so heavy, its hard to carry such
pressure on one's self.
maybe thats why dreams are dreams,
...and not my reality.

Time in the sky

Wed, 12 May 2004 23:15:10 GMT

Time flys,
Like needles piercing clouds.
Sun breaks through with streaks in full effect.
Blinding everyone in th sky.
Wings charred
While breath taken

Beauty and stillness, lost in the day...

no titles...

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 20:10:09 GMT

Love so distant,
Nights so dark.. so empty.
But dreams so beautiful
The onlyway to feel you.

To hear you is To hear my heart,
And to feel you is to feel my love

Love is Sincere.
Time is nothing.

_______________________

So I write with beautiful words
and sing to you as we sleep.
With our most precious time together,
I'm with oyu forever.
Even in times of absense.

_______________________

This kid goes through life with blinders on.
Yet, with eyes wide open and yet so closed,
walking with dreams on his back.
He feels impossible

Heart through a telephone.

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 00:51:35 GMT

Telephones never made sense to me.
Until long distance was in effect
So give me your static,
and give me your voice of beauty.
Let me hear my heart.

I long for touch, but your voice.....
the sound of my heart through this phone
gets me through the night.

Company of a dream

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 00:47:57 GMT

To a dead end place
Like a dead end road
with only one light.
A light left behind,
But can never be forgotten.
Dabbed in ink.
I dream....
I dream of her,
For now, thats all that can be done.
For a short while in time...

Circle for an evening

Sun, 22 Feb 2004 00:06:35 GMT

hurt me.
make me feel alive
Wake me from this place
never ending
dull me over with wonderful life
cave me in with heavy pressure
make me die like beautiful clouds
each day only to return
death consumes me
in each Evening of solitude
so much despair
and yet so much comfort.

For My Valentine

Sun, 15 Feb 2004 20:33:29 GMT

I cut these flowers from my heart
I wrote this Poem from my heart
Time moves fast
but our time together, will last forever
two roses for two valentine days
three roses for our third valentines day
four roses for a forth.

While Your roses blossom, My love grows.
My trivial Analogy.

I don't have much to give
but these roses mean the world
Because you are My world
So hold these flowers, until next year
Then Maybe i'll have more to give

For now all we need is eachother,
What we have, cant be Taged
It can only be wished and hoped for.
And i'll hope the best for them.
I hope that they feel as I do.

Such a beautiful significance.

A poem for my sweet valentine
With your name etched on my heart
I'm yours forever.

Same story.

Thu, 12 Feb 2004 04:00:01 GMT

I have a nothingness about me
Can you see it?
I hate to love this place
But that will get me no where
I'm moving on, but im not going anywhere
I want to smash my fists through emotion
I feel everything. And I feel nothing
I am somewhere. But,i am no where
I hate me and I hate you
black walls, hard to climb
flieds of flowers on the otherside.
Looks beautiful, means well
Trys so hard, but fails all to well...
Second Chances come too easy
But don't deny me
I will be warm.

Change of Seasons

Thu, 12 Feb 2004 03:21:34 GMT

I cant feel anything.
a numbness consumes me,
as water freezes hell

its a never ending episode

So dress me in flames
as i melt with the sun
Green floods the earth
with beautiful shades

Routine Dreams

Tue, 03 Feb 2004 08:50:40 GMT

I hear paino sounds
When time elapsed
Quiet times when about to crack.
Mind screams when most alone.

My dreams come while im awake,
lying there dead in dreams.
searching for something.
sleep smothers me until the next sun set.
depriving me of life
and to awaken only to hear the same song.

Lost

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 20:22:47 GMT

im all about the writers block. so im just gonna ramble..
i went to apply for a job yesterday, that was fun.
and tomorrow i have my final exam which i have mixed feelings about, cant wait to be done nonetheless..